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[25 Apr 2007|09:57pm] |
Funny shit:
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[26 Mar 2007|11:28pm] |
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OMFG I remembered I have an LJ.
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[20 Aug 2006|03:46am] |
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I almost forgot what it was like to feel content.
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[16 Apr 2006|11:37pm] |
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I believe in belief, or rather: I have faith in having faith. Yet, I am an atheist (or a "bright" as some would have it). How can that be?
It is important to have faith, but not necessarily in God. Faith is important far outside the realm of religion: having faith in other people, in oneself, in the world, in the existence of truth, justice and beauty. There is a continuum of faith, from the basic everyday trust in others to the grand devotion to divine entities.
Recent discoveries in behavioural sciences, such as experimental economics and game theory, shows that it is a common human attitude towards the world to have faith. It is vital in human interactions; and it is no coincidence that the importance of anchoring behaviour in riskful trust is stressed in worlds as far apart as Sren Kierkegaard's existentialist christianity and modern theories of bargaining behaviour in economic interactions. Both stress the importance of the inner, subjective conviction as the basis for actions, the feeling of an inner glow.
One could say that modern behavioral science is re-discovering the importance of faith that has been known to religions for a long time. And I would argue that this re-discovery shows us that the activity of having faith can be decoupled from the belief in divine entities.
So here is what I have faith in: We have a hand backing us, not as a divine foresight or control, but in the very simple and concrete sense that we are all survivors. We are all the result of a very long line of survivors who survived long enough to have offspring. Amoeba, rodents and mammals. We can therefore have confidence that we are experts in survival. We have a wisdom inside, inherited from millions of generations of animals and humans, a knowledge of how to go about life. That does not in any way imply foresight or planning ahead on our behalf. It only implies that we have a reason to trust out ability to deal with whatever challenges we meet. We have inherited such an ability.
Therefore, we can trust each other, ourselves and life itself. We have no guarantee or promises for eternal life, not at all. The enigma of death is still there, ineradicable.
But we a reason to have confidence in ourselves. The basic fact that we are still here, despite snakes, stupidity and nuclear weapons, gives us reason to have confidence in ourselves and each other, to trust others and to trust life. To have faith.
Because we are here, we have reason for having faith in having faith.
-TOR NORRETRANDERS
Science Writer; Consultant; Lecturer
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[16 Mar 2006|04:10pm] |
bdhilnd: there's something...unconditional that I see in us. For better or worse, ya know..
bdhilnd: it is just mind altering to me...and I'm enjoying every minute with you..I hope that shows
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[13 Mar 2006|11:07pm] |
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why i want to live: disease can't take away much that i love
by rob borsellino
you've got serious health problems and decide you need an exit strategy.
you've got some hard-to-pronounce fatal illness like amyotrophic lateral sclerosis - lou gehrig's disease- and you want to go out with dignity, not with tubes in your body so you can eat and breathe.
or end up in a wheelchair using some machine so you can speak. that's not who you want to be.
you've got to get things set up so you can make the call when you've had enough and it's time to go.
it's not something you're comfortable talking about or even thinking about, but the alternatives are painful, scary.
you're worried you'll end up with florida gov. jeb bush praying at your bedside, telling your friends and family to back off and let him handle this.
you're having nightmares in which congressmen tom delay and sen. bill frist decide it's best for the government to deal with your problems.
they're holding news conferences to let the country know they really care about you because they're kind, compassionate individuals.
they get the president to personally appoint "brownie" to handle your case. these guys will keep you going until they think you've had enough.
but this isn't what you want.
why bother to live if you can't play softball or eat sushi? or yell at your kids and give your wife a hard time?
so you decide that when it gets to the point where you need all these toys and tubes to keep you going, you've got to make the hard decision.
you're going to be tough to the end.
that was last year.
now you're sitting there with a feeding tube pouring some sludge-like paste into your stomach.
you're playing with this little machine where you punch in words and it can speak for you - you can even do curse words in italian.
you've got a cane to help you get around, and you know a wheelchair is not far off.
at times you're depressed, angry that you need these things.
but mostly you're feeling this weird sense of being challenged, and you want to fight back.
all these little tools are a pain, but you can still deal with that stuff.
the feeding tube gives you the strength to keep going. so you're thinking about all you would have missed if you weren't there.
you wouldn't have gone out saturday night to a church dance.
that means you wouldn't have seen the pastor jumping around the dance floor wearing a bright red shirt and matching socks, rocking out to surfin' usa.
and, more important, you wouldn't have seen iowa's lieutenant governor grabbing the lead in the church's hula hoop contest.
then there's the news, something you care about. you would have missed this one: sen. hillary clinton was outraged over the dubai ports deal. and says she didn't know that her husband was an adviser to folks in dubai, united arab emirates.
seriously, hillary insists she didn't know what her husband was up to.
and you wouldn't have seen the headline "house republicans defy bush."
or "man shot by cheney has heart attack."
and that's just a few weeks.
scooter libby isn't even on trial yet.
so you're thinking there's a lot to live for - even without the style you had in mind.
and if you could find a way to get sushi into that feeding tube, the future would be a lot more inviting.
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[05 Mar 2006|03:30am] |
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everything is looking up, for once.
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[06 Feb 2006|03:09pm] |
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my journal is pretty much going to be private one from now on.
until i get shit figured out again, at least.
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[29 Jan 2006|01:01am] |
these precious things
let them bleed
let them wash away
these precious things
let them break their hold over me
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[31 Dec 2005|02:25am] |
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so i am not at all surprised about the outcome of that situation.
hopefully it will be the last time i abandon logic for emotions.
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[17 Dec 2005|02:53am] |
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i should try to go to bed before 4ish.
Open iTunes/iPod or Windows Media Player to answer the following. Go to your library. Answer, no matter how embarrassing it is.
How many songs? 5,362 and growing
Sort by Artist
First Artist: 3 inches of blood
Last Artist: zz top
Sort by Song Title
First Song: "...and the great cold death of the earth" by agalloch
Last Song: "Zuno Gyakusatsu" by cephalic carnage
Sort by Time
First Song: "hidden track" by virgin black
Last Song: "black rose immortal" by opeth
Sort by Album
First Album: "...The Infinite" by lunaris
Last Album: "Zos Kia Cultus" by behemoth
Sort by Genre
First Genre: - therion
Last Genre: world - flogging molly
First song that comes up on shuffle: "creator failure" by iced earth
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[02 Dec 2005|08:30pm] |
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i got my nipples pierced today.
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[27 Nov 2005|02:59pm] |
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some days i wake up and feel completely alone.
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[06 Oct 2005|05:09pm] |
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The Wild Rose
Random Brutal Love Dreamer (RBLDf)
Colorful, but unpicked. You are The Wild Rose.
Prone to bouts of cynicism, sarcasm, and thorns, you excite a certain kind of woman. You're the rare, independent, self-sufficient kind of woman who does want love, but not from a weakling.
You don't seem to take yourself too seriously, and that's refreshing. You aren't uptight; you don't over-plan. A true relationship would be preferable. For your age, you haven't had a lot of bonafide love experience, though, and this kind of gets to core of the issue. You're very selective.
The problem is them, not you, right? You have lofty standards that few measure up to. You're out there all right, but not to be picked up by just anyone.
"You're never truly single as long as you have yourself."
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[26 Sep 2005|12:24am] |
ITS ABOUT DAMN TIME IT RAINED.
i missed it.
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[25 Sep 2005|09:05pm] |
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so corpse bride was awesome.
and i cant get my goddamn 0s in.
thats all.
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[21 Sep 2005|12:12am] |
my mom is going on her crazy "its the end of the world" religious shit.
lovely.
i miss him.
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